Just Content To Be A Son

Down into Nothingness I experienced the “going down into nothingness.” Now, I am not interested in the dictionary’s definition of nothingness. All I know is that I came to the end of myself—down, down, down into a place of total helplessness. I had struggled long and hard to be obedient to the Lord, striving earnestly to live a holy life and to be pure. I had tried diligently to beat down every passion and lust in my body and mind. I had read many books and listened to many teachers, looking for keys, insights, secrets to living the life of an overcomer. I had wept until there were no more tears. I had walked and prayed, I had knelt and prayed, I had lain on my face and prayed. I had read my Bible until my eyes were weary. I had begged the Holy Spirit to cut off my offending right arm, pluck out my offending right eye, do whatever He had to do to rid me of all besetting sins. I wanted to be a pleasure to my Lord so badly. Then one day I could take it no more. On that day,